Give me those moments where I think he’s coming back. Give me more of those, I thought to whoever was listening-whether it was God, or Oz, or the three sisters of Fate. My chest was congested with regret, and relief, and resolve. So every day I would fight for Sebastian, and people in the same boat, who don’t have what I do, who struggle to find themselves in a world that tells them white and straight and narrow gets first pick in the schoolyard game of life. Every day I would be grateful that no one who matters to me questions whether I am too masculine, too feminine, too open, too closed.Įvery day I would be grateful for what I have, and that I can be who I am without judgment. Every day I could go to class as exactly the person I am, and meet new people, and come outside later for some fresh air and Frisbee. But missing him every day for the rest of my life was still easier than the fight Sebastian had: to stuff himself inside a box every morning and tuck that box inside his heart and pray that his heart kept beating around the obstacle. “ He is never going to be here, I thought.
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